So much has changed in my life since I started writing this blog and it has made me hesitant to write much over the last year. While some things haven't changed, I am different. I am not going to live abroad any time soon. I am not a student anymore. I'm not currently pursuing work … Continue reading Blogging for Sanity Part II
Just over a week ago my job sent us home. No work, no traveling, and no gatherings for at least a month. At first I thought, okay I'm going to be optimistic and get all of these things done at home that I haven't had enough time for. I'm going to work on art every … Continue reading Quarantine Week 1: Lessons Learned
I feel fine.I feel bored.I feel numb. I feel empty.I feel unsatisfied.I feel anxious.I feel doom.I feel alone.I feel sad.I feel depressed.I feel my arms and legs weighing me down.I feel frustrated.I feel angry.I feel my brain on fire.I feel death.I feel like giving up.I feel release.I feel tired.I feel weak.I feel weepy.I feel guilty.I … Continue reading “Today”
I inherited my father's Norwegian feet: short, wide, flat, and with an extra squatty big toe. I think it was in the first or second grade when people started making fun of my short, fat big toe. I was so incredibly embarrassed that I stopped wearing any form of sandal or open toed shoe for … Continue reading Troll Feet
Like many others in the world, I have struggled with low self-esteem for as long as I can remember. Unfortunately, there have been many times that my feelings of worthlessness have built up so much that I cannot bear to be in my own skin. The negative judgments that I have been told or thought … Continue reading Life Lesson #2: That’s a person.
I felt so good last week. For three days straight I was full of energy and feeling more positive than ever. I would go to work and school and then go home and do as much as I could. I painted, drew, planted, cleaned, shopped, cooked, and made lists. I felt like I had to … Continue reading The Bad Days Make the Good Days Sweeter
Over the past few years I have learned a lot of different things about myself. Therapy has helped me to accept and love many of the attributes that I have, but it has also helped me to see the things that I need to work on. One of the biggest things that I have struggled … Continue reading Life Lesson #1: You can never make everyone happy.
Sifa was so supportive when I was first considering my internship in Puerto Rico. He has always wanted me to reach my goals and get the education that I want. He did, however, worry about my mental health while I was there. I worried about it too. I have learned that Sifa really likes me … Continue reading Taking Care of my Plants (& Myself)
Yesterday I started seeing a counselor again. Even though I know that counseling is the right move for me right now, there is always a fear that when I share my life with someone they will reject me. About two years ago I went to the counseling center at my university to ask for help. … Continue reading Finding a Counselor That Fits Your Needs
My internship here in Puerto Rico has been going very well and I am pleased with the progress we have seen here in Ponce. However, because this internship is so important to me I tend to be pretty hard on myself when I have surges of emotion. It is a common to think that being … Continue reading 21 Reasons to Appreciate Being Emotional