I inherited my father's Norwegian feet: short, wide, flat, and with an extra squatty big toe. I think it was in the first or second grade when people started making fun of my short, fat big toe. I was so incredibly embarrassed that I stopped wearing any form of sandal or open toed shoe for … Continue reading Troll Feet
Growing up with emotional troubles often made me feel like I did not fit well into the Christian mold and fold. However, looking back on it, it was not at all my religious beliefs that made life more difficult. My faith makes things easier. It gives me hope and helps me to feel close … Continue reading A Troubled Christian Mind
Like many others in the world, I have struggled with low self-esteem for as long as I can remember. Unfortunately, there have been many times that my feelings of worthlessness have built up so much that I cannot bear to be in my own skin. The negative judgments that I have been told or thought … Continue reading Life Lesson #2: That’s a person.
I felt so good last week. For three days straight I was full of energy and feeling more positive than ever. I would go to work and school and then go home and do as much as I could. I painted, drew, planted, cleaned, shopped, cooked, and made lists. I felt like I had to … Continue reading The Bad Days Make the Good Days Sweeter
Sifa and broke up a lot before we got married. While that's probably pretty normal it was an ordeal for the both of us. I loved Sifa but anxiety kept overtaking me and it often ended in me breaking up with him. I had told him about my emotional struggles at the beginning of our … Continue reading How Medication Saved My Relationship
Over the past few years I have learned a lot of different things about myself. Therapy has helped me to accept and love many of the attributes that I have, but it has also helped me to see the things that I need to work on. One of the biggest things that I have struggled … Continue reading Life Lesson #1: You can never make everyone happy.
For years I fought the idea of needing medication. Whenever someone suggested it I thought that it was not for me. Some of my thoughts were contradictory, but I still thought them. Medication can't solve psychological problems.Only really crazy people need medication.I'm not like those people.I don't need medication, I just need to.... (lose weight, … Continue reading Fight the Stigma: Get Medication if You Need It
Sifa was so supportive when I was first considering my internship in Puerto Rico. He has always wanted me to reach my goals and get the education that I want. He did, however, worry about my mental health while I was there. I worried about it too. I have learned that Sifa really likes me … Continue reading Taking Care of my Plants (& Myself)
Yesterday I started seeing a counselor again. Even though I know that counseling is the right move for me right now, there is always a fear that when I share my life with someone they will reject me. About two years ago I went to the counseling center at my university to ask for help. … Continue reading Finding a Counselor That Fits Your Needs
One of our last adventures in Puerto Rico was sailing to the uninhabited island of Caja de Muertos! I don't want to forget the beautiful day we spent there so I decided to write about it and put all of the pictures in one place. Most of the pictures I am posting are from my … Continue reading Caja de Muertos